Monday, December 5, 2016

Trials on Trials on Trials

It seems as if since I stepped off that airplane from the GKLM life has gotten hard. Not just a little trial here or there, but big trials here, there and everywhere in between.

And while I would like to think that I can handle it on my own and deal with it all myself, I can't. I really just can't. I need my Father in Heaven and I need my Savior Jesus Christ. I need the enabling and redeeming power of the Atonement. I need support, I need help, I need Dennis and I need my family. I really can't do this alone. It was humbling to realize that, again, but it is always so wonderful to realize that again.

Father in Heaven is there for me. Jesus Christ is there for me. They both know exactly what I am feeling, thinking and going through. Christ knows first hand wha I experienced and is waiting for me to reach out to him.

While studying my scriptures today I had the sweetest tender mercy. I have had a harder few weeks. November has just not been my month at all. It started off downhill and the ball kept rolling. I just pray that that ball stops soon because December is my wedding month! I think the ball came to a today though. I was reading in Mosiah 24 and came across verses 13-16. They read:

 13 And it came to pass that the voice of the Lord came to them in their afflictions, saying: Lift up your heads and be of good comfort, for I know of the covenant which ye have made unto me; and I will covenant with my people and deliver them out of bondage.
 14 And I will also ease the burdens which are put upon your shoulders, that even you cannot feel them upon your backs, even while you are in bondage; and this will I do that ye may stand as witnesses for me hereafter, and that ye may know of a surety that I, the Lord God, do visit my people in their afflictions.
 15 And now it came to pass that the burdens which were laid upon Alma and his brethren were made light; yea, the Lord did strengthen them that they could bear up their burdens with ease, and they did submit cheerfully and with patience to all the will of the Lord.
 16 And it came to pass that so great was their faith and their patience that the voice of the Lord came unto them again, saying: Be of good comfort, for on the morrow I will deliver you out of bondage.
These touched my heart so much. I didn't read them like they read above because that is not what they said to me. To me, they said: The voice of the Lord came unto ME in MY afflictions and said: I know of the covenant you have made with me and I remember the covenant I have made with you. I am testing you patience and faith. Allow the enabling power to lift you and guide you. Submit cheerfully to my will. I will deliver you."

And it is true. The Lord works in mysterious ways. I may not have seen that on the paper, but that is what I felt in my heart and that is what the Lord taught me. Trials and challenges are meant to test and try us. They are hard for a reason, but I will always come out stronger on the other side. I am beyond grateful for the scriptures and I know that that is how the Lord speaks to me!

"When we want to speak to God, we pray. And when we want Him to speak to us, we search the scriptures; for His words are spoken through His prophets. He will then teach us as we listen to the promptings of the Holy Spirit." -Robert D. Hales


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